I need a vacation so bad! School is literally strangling me and work is getting harder and harder! Today was a low point for Chad and I both. I was so grouchy all day, school was kicking my butt one class after the other as i submitted papers incorrectly or got assigned to a group I knew were slackers or reminded that in order to get a good grade I'd have to grovel and beg for one at the end of the semester, not because I did poorly but because the teacher simply states in the syllabus "that he doesn't believe in the grading system" (total bull shiz BTW, if your a teacher, you know just how important grades are to get anywhere, feek). I came home totally defeated to be greeted with all the mistakes I had made in the office over the past month. Most of the time, when I'm having a bad day, Chads "husband-gene" kicks in and he has super happy strength to help pull me out of my slump and I do the same for him when hes having a bad day, but today was a genetic mutation or something because neither of us could find the good in ANYTHING. Finally 9:00 came around and I said gooodnight to the world in hopes that i would wake up and be in a better mood. It worked of course but man, days like yesterday make me question why the heck Chad and I are even up here?! Why we are getting schooling, why we are over-worked and underpaid, why we are waiting to have kids, why do we have no money and are building debt from school? I see all my friends in AZ (btw, its official, AZ is the happiest place on earth), and they have real jobs, as in jobs that they know they can be at for a long period of time, grow in the company and enjoy, they have bellies, yes, bellies that are full of babies! They have HOUSES! Like real grown ups, houses with a mortgage and everything, some even are in wards with people over the age of 30, with a primary and youth, like NORMAL. I think we just need something to shake it up a little, we have some vacations planned but lets face it, we are going to be here for another 2 years and if I spend the time here wishing I was somewhere else, its going to be a long two years. I think somewhere in my subconcious i know it will all be worth it but that small place in my subconsious is being buried deeper and deeper and Im starting to think Chad and I are just crazies without a cause. I mean, we've been here over a year and we have done absolutely everything Rexburg has to offer for our date nights in the first six months, so since then its just been repeats. When I ask people for a fun date idea, they all say the same thing... "go to Jakson, Go to Yellowstone, Go to Salt Lake, go go GO! Thats the issue people! We CAN'T GO! What do you do when your stuck with no way out for the next 2 years, besides dream of the day when you can not know what to do for a date night because there are TOO MANY options. (bringing it all back together with a morally sound cliche')
It's ok because it will all be worth it in the end :)
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Hang in there guys! It really will be worth it in the end. You want to teach your children that education is important and the best way to do that is by example. I know it's hard and you have friends who seem farther in life than you do, but you will be so much better for having a degree. And when you both graduate and have that overwhelming feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction, Ryan and I will be in the front row cheering you on.
ReplyDeleteLife after a degree isn't always easy either, but we know we made the right decision and now we both can't wait to get back into school.
With all that being said, maybe you should check into transferring to Utah. There is a lot more to do there!
Good luck!! and call us if you need anything. Winter semester is the worst because there are no breaks, but you CAN DO IT!!