So naturally the idea of Chad finishing college and having a change of scenery has been an exciting thought for a while now. As we talk about where we'll end up next, "Arizona, Colorado, Virginia, Hawaii, and Utah" Are always in the mix. We've got an open mind about our future career and we're willing to go anywhere! But the key word has always been GO. We've always wanted to GO somewhere else, somewhere other than what's been our home for the past almost 4 years.
Until just recently...
Our boss is awesome, he's always working on developing us as employees but most importantly as people. He wants us to succeed and become financially free and successful people. I love that about him. He's so invested in our future because he realizes that we are taking care of one of his major investments.
Anyways
We had always wanted to get outta here as soon as we got that diploma. For a few reasons really.
1.Rexburg is awesome but I'm starting to grow tired of a town that relies on students. It literally shuts down in the summer and revolves around student life year round, which we're starting to get a little tired of. Plus a change in scenery is just due! I don't think its so much that I'm getting tired of Rexburg, as it is that I'm getting tired of being so far from family.
2.I'm ready to focus ALL my attention on my little boy. While I love our bosses and the people we get to work with everyday. I've never liked this job. I've liked aspects of it, but it's just not "me". I wanna do something I LOVE, something I'm passionate about, like raise my son and developing my home and family. (Thus the marriage and family relations emphasis).
Which is why when our boss suggested we stick around after Chad got a job, I almost immediately dismissed it. While I greatly respect the opinion of our boss, I just thought, "that's just not whats best for us" (or i should say, whats best for ME)
I wanted a change of scenery.
I wanted to get out of this job and apartment.
I wanted Chad to want that too.
and most importantly
I wanted that to be "what was best" for our family.
"Kayla, all those, "I Wants", That's so selfish!" you say.
Yes, you're right, it was selfish.
I had the mentality that I would tell the Lord what his options were and then he'd choose where he wanted us to go...from the choices I provided...yeah it doesn't work that way. It never has so I don't know what I was thinking.
SO the other day, I'm walking around Porter Park with my friend Chelsea and we're talking about life. We get on the subject of life after college and what our plans are so i mention this silly idea that our boss had to stay here. As I'm telling her the details of the plan and hearing myself, it sounds awesome. I'm telling her about living here just a little longer. Managing, a job i'm not fond of but have gotten really good at over the years and could continue doing for just a little longer. Supporting my family the same way I have for the past three years while Chad gets a great job here locally and makes a great living.
We would live the same way we have over the past 3 years, on a small income, mine. And we would pocket literally everything that Chad makes. E.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. Meaning within just a short year, maybe year and a half we would have all of mine and Chads student loans paid off and a good down payment established for a home.
Yeah, it sounds amazing! So much so, that it took me a minute to remember why I dismissed it so quickly in the first place.
oh yeah...
-Tiny apartment and a growing family...because yeah we want to give Liam a sibling here soon and our 600sqft apartment is already cramped and cluttered.
-Managing...I can't explain exactly what i hate about it but I think the main just of it is that it distracts me 24/7. Being onsite and dealing with every aspect of the complex, advertising, maintenance, clerical, move-ins and outs, tenants issues, rent collection...the list goes on and on. Its hard not to think about it and it's even harder not to miss something, which makes me feel like a failure every time I miss a tiny detail in a sea of responsibility.
-Rexburg...love Idaho, love Rexburg even, but I want to move! I'm running out of things to do.
-I've been looking at houses, neighborhoods, schools and towns the past 5 months or so, with the excitement of a change of scenery, new starts and a HOUSE (rent or bought, just not connected to someone elses walls)
-I just wanna be at home with my boy. I wanna be closer to family.
As I looked at the reasons I dismissed the idea in the first place, I realized how selfish I was being. This is a great opportunity. We have the chance to become debt free in a little over a year, for Chad to try out a field of engineering locally and get paid well to do it. We can continue to have our utilities and housing paid for and acquire no new bills. It's such a great move for our family! It just requires some sacrifice.
We're not 100% sure of all the details. We aren't sure if this is what we'll do but I know that we can continue to sacrifice a little for a greater future for our family.Even though our future is still unsyre, I'm glad the Lord lightened my view and helped me to see that it's not all about what I want, or even what Chad and I want. It's about what the Lord wants for us.
We'll keep you posted as Chad applies for jobs and finishes up his last semester here at BYUI!
All good things, all good things
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