Week 31: Playing The Pregnancy Card

This week was rough.
I don't know whats wrong with me but tears...all day everyday. Its ridiculous and annoying.

On Wednesday I was at my worst. I was having a rough day and I just couldn't help but cry at everything. Someone knocks on my door while I have a curling iron in my hair...crying.
Chad calls to tell me he's making me dinner tonight...crying
We talk about buying a second vehicle...crying
I splash water on my massive belly while doing dishes...crying.
It's exhausting and I kinda feel like I'm a loosing my mind.

It didn't help that it was "month end" when our employers come down to check on everything and I had just had a massive month of work to be checked. I was stressed with that, Chad had some major tests and we hardly saw each other all week and when we did he was unavailable, studying or doing work, and I had another little scare with Liam, I didn't feel him all Monday-Wednesday and I had some sharp pains in my lower abdomen. I wasn't in a good place but I learned my first two trimesters that worrying does nothing. So I dragged myself through the week, trying hard to be happy with a hormones that were firm in their resolve to do otherwise. I played that pregnancy card and it was a fair play people.

To make a long dramatic, exhausting story short, I have a lot to be grateful for this week. I'm grateful for prayer, because when I have nothing by my own hormonal mindset to rely on, the Lords there to remind me that this is temporary and that through prayer I can feel physical, and spiritual peace, regardless. I'm grateful for my amazing husband, who still loves me (or at least does a great job pretending to) even though I'm acting like Cruella Devil on crack. I'm grateful for amazing co-workers who don't judge me and help me laugh at an impossible day. I'm grateful for stake conference, a light at the end of this tunnel of a week. I'm grateful for Liams kicks and flutters that bring me so much happiness and excitement (and rib aches, that I've learned to love). Have I mentioned how thankful I am for my husband? Well I am, I'm so thankful for his love and understanding, I feel weak sometimes with this pregnancy, both physically and emotionally and he has given me every reason to believe that I'm always going to be taken care of. He's so supportive, forgiving and understanding of a situation that is clearly foreign to us both. I'm so glad I have such a worthy, willing and patient companion to go through this with.

Week:31

 Total Weight Gain: 19 pounds up from my pre-pregnancy weight

Stretch Marks: yeah they're still there...yay.

Best Moment This Week: Making a list of everything else we need to get before the baby gets here and not freaking out about it!

Missing: Myself, lately I haven't felt like me but i know these hormones will cool off in a little bit

Movement: Normal now! the beginning of the week was stressful but he's kicking as usual now
Symptoms: Stretching and soreness around my ribs

Food Cravings: I could win a chug contest this week. I'm always so thirsty for icey water!
Causing Nausea: Nothing really.

Labor Signs: none

Belly Button: So close to popping, Chad says it looks like a squinty eye

Wedding ring:  Off

Moods: Hormonal :( Depressed but grateful.

Next Doctor's Appointment: 20th of November, my 32 week appointment!

Looking Forward to: Stake Conference and Going to Idaho Falls for a much needed date night

Baby Facts: He's going through major brain and nerve development. Eye development, too. His irises now react to light! All five of his senses are in working order.

   He's as big as a Pineapple!