so many happenings happening

What a whirlwind of a month. The house has kept us very busy and learning so much about first time home owning. We I spent the first week, sleeplessly tossing and turning, thinking about the instant buyers remorse i felt as I walked in our home for the the first time after signing the papers, looking at all the dirty blinds, busted pluming, slow draining sinks, dark smelly walls and carpet, holey walls, the list goes on and on.I thought "Oh no, now this is MY mess!". It was a little hard buying a home and moving in feeling like everything was already broken and needing replaced but the price reflects it and we've always bought used for everything else, the house would be no different, it would just need a whole lot more elbow grease and love. I found peace as Chad and I worked together and talked about how exciting each stage would be as we restore neglected parts of the house and how fun it would be to watch our dreams come alive within the walls that are currently bare, neglected and lifeless.

    I know how corny it sounds but after spending hours in our powder room patching unnecessarily huge holes, replacing outdated and inefficient fixtures, I told Chad that I never wanted to put holes in that bathroom again, he asked how I intended to hang towels and toilet paper holders without it, I told him I wanted the house to trust me, I just mended its neglected and damaged walls, I wasn't about to loose its trust by drilling more holes in it. It needs to heal!

I may have an unhealthy relationship with this house.

 Of course I don't really see my house as a stallion I'm trying to break, but truly, I feel like every time I replace a baseboard, paint trim, clean a set of blinds or cut in the paint between the ceilings and walls, I'm creating something new and our own.  And I want it to feel like new when we are done here, whenever that may be.

We have lots of plans but life keeps happening and I'm currently trying to find the balance between living life and doing everyday things like laundry, vacuuming, pre-school, playdates, church responsibilities ect. and the other things that need to be done like, repainting the ceiling, planting winter grass, replacing countertops, painting cabinets, buffing floors, and reorganizing the garage. SO much to do and now we have to really manage our time and our budget better to insure it can all get done.

In the mean time, life is chugging along. Liam is loving preschool. He is learning all the leasons i hoped he would. How to think of others first, being in charge of himself and taking responsibility for his actions and learning to respect his peers and teachers efforts and requests. For a few weeks we struggled with a particular issue as his teacher kindly told me he had hit a girl in his class when she knocked down his tower (double whammy, hitting and hitting a GIRL). We worked on it a lot, lots of talks and fhe lessons catered to kindness and patience. But no matter how much he truely understood what we expected of him and no matter how much sense it all made to him, he's still three and he still was learning to control those fight or flight instincts so we prayed about it before each preschool day and this last week after preschool me and all the other moms were waiting anxiously outside Miss. Jones door to pick up our kiddos and ask them about thier day! The first little guy runs out the door, it was Bennet, one of Liams buddies, he's adorable, spiky fohawks every week, ACDC shirts and nikes every day plus the sweetest highest baby voice that could make any girls heart melt. He runs to his mom, and with is sweet little voice he said "mommy, mommy! I got to be the line leader today and hold the flag for the pledge!" We all "Awed" at the cuteness. Liam ran out next and in his most excited, proud voice he said, "Mama! I didnt even hit anyone in the face today!". Everyone giggled, and I celebrated the genine pride and enthusiasm of a boy who tried his hardest and won the day!

Matix is really feeling the heat in the developmental department. He cant communicate and its starting to wear on him. and me, if im being honest. I'm ready for a little more effort on his part in regards to talking, or communicating in any way really. He has a few words, if we can even call them that. EEEEEEEeeeeeee if please...but its also cheese. Mama is me but its also kind of just what he says when he whines. And our favorite is "Whaaaaaoooooooowwww" which is spot on with the english language... wow!  He can also meow like a cat, squeak when he sees birds and say Uh-oh when he spills his drinks...daily. He makes us laugh so hard and always looks for a chance to escape through the front or back door to play outside. He adores all animals and laughs with glee at any opportunity to pet a puppers. He's humoring us a little more now a days with kisses but he still gives those away on his terms and sparingly...i hope he keeps that attitude through his teenage years.

Chad is rocking it at work! He's such an asset on his job and it seems like he's always being given new and exciting ways to progress and prove his consitencey of excellence and reliability. He even enjoys working Saturday shifts on occasion because he sees the value of proving himself and really feels like all his extra efforts are being noticed and noted! We're excited to finish up the command center job and getting moving on the phoenix airport sky train job! There are a few other guys on the skytrain jobs with kids our kids ages and we're planning a BBQ with them after the holidays, we are just so excited to strengthen our work family. Hansel Phelps is just an incredible family. Chad is coaching Liams t-ball team and he LOVES is...possibly more than Liam, but I love watching my boys connect and spend one on one time together. They both love practicing and i just cant wait for our back yard to get whipped into shape so they can go out back and practice every day!